DaisysforaFriend

PAX again

Time for PAX again.  This means that my art will be  on the back burner for a while.

I have been working pretty consistently on several different projects.

My focus has been loose and I have 4 things going on right now… maybe 5…  Either way, they will get done eventually.

The weather has not been helping much.  Living in an old house without AC is troublesome to say the least.  The heat saps my energy and motivation.

This is something I did for an acquaintance.  She is a pretty awesome person.  Sometimes art just happens because you find that someone inspired you to make art.  A muse of sorts.  It does not have to be a close friend or anything.  Sometimes it might even be someone you dislike.  If it motivates you to create, who or why does not really matter.

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Daisy’s for a friend done in inks:)

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Over Doing it

There are times when I am so busy that I over do it.

Not really physically.  Mentally and emotionally.

Things HAVE to be done; Get up, go to work, deal with people. The house has to be cleaned, people are coming over, tomorrow.  Spend several hours cleaning. Go to work, deal with people.  Get home, deal with people. Work on art.  It makes you happy right? Latte’s, sugar, tea… sleep? Chores, more painting and drawing.  Errands… Music to save your sanity  and keep you from punching that idiot.

There are days (like the day I wrote this) where I just need to go and hide in a dimly lit hole.  Hide and recuperate my energy, my tolerances, and relocate my motivation.

When I am this rundown I tend to get depressed or angry (I would rather be depressed.  It is easier to hide then to walk around trying to restrain myself.)  When depressed I have trouble focusing on the good things, happy things.

The good becomes so hard to find that it is not worth looking for it. It is almost not worth trying to keep making things because you think everything is bad. All you see are the mistakes and errors.  Not the overall picture and how it is viewed.

You start doubting your skills.  All the mistakes, errors.  I suck.  I am a failure.  I am an amature.  No amount of practice makes me better.

You get sucked into a spiral of “why bother doing..?”  It is  all mistakes, it sucks, no one likes it.

This process leads to a lack of inspiration, and then a lack of art.  Then a shell of a person, only going about things because they have to be done for the survival of the body.

Hopefully one can see it coming and mitigate the situation before it becomes  a full blown episode of stagnation and misery.  Months and years of your life can be lost in the “pit of despair.”

There are lots of away to recover.  I walk to recover.  I find a park, put on some music and walk.  Miles and miles.  I pretend that I am nothing.  No one knows me.  I have no skills, no personality, no needs, wants, desires, nothing.  I am unknown and invisible.  I walk.

Matt Simons – Catch and Release is one of my favorite songs to walk to.  It puts things into perspective.

And I am out of words on this topic for now.

Night!

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Inspiration is all around.  One just has to see.

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Painting inspired by the above scene I saw while out for a walk.

 

 

 

No Internet!

I have no internet for 2 weeks.  Okaaay. One of those is already past, but still.

It is nice in a way.  I have nothing to escape to instead of working on art projects or chores.

I would go nuts if my phone did not have unlimited data.  I clean best to music.

I hope to have an awesome post or two when it does come back up.  I have been working hard on things.

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Following the Road

I am making PROGRESS!

Once I set my sights on where I want to go, I started taking steps to make it happen.  Well, I planned out some steps, mini goals, and I am finally seeing results.

Last year I spent most of my time creating.  Mostly drawing, some painting, and learning.  Reading about being an Artist as a business, watching other artists and making friends (well trying to.)

This year I am proud to say that I have been able to get things out to the world.

It is not as easy as people would think.  You do not just make stuff and mass produce it.

You have to plan things, ask and answer questions.

Do I want to do limited runs?  How many?  How much space do I have, how many can I store?

What kind of paper?  Sizes?  Postcards, stickers?

What should I charge?  Etsy, Shopify, WordPress store, something else?  Art fairs?

Aaaahhhhh!

So many questions!

But I will not be derailed.  I will stay on my path and get to where I am going.

I am still undecided on several things, well almost everything.  But I will figure it out.

Right now I am going to celebrate getting my first print done and off to its new home.

Yay Me!

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The little one on top is the original.  The large one right under is 13×18 inches.  I scanned them at 3200 dpi.  I can go bigger!  I am so excited.

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Know Your Medium

Know Your Medium

I want to stress the importance of knowing your medium.

While working on a portrait I needed to fix some errors.  The paper was off white, so I would have to make my own correction fluid to color match the paper.

The plan is to mix a brown with white until the color is as close as possible.  I have two colors of brown, Burnt Umber and Sepia.  One is warm and the other is cool.

When mixing them with the white I discovered that the Sepia turned grey!  Not what I was expecting.  I quickly abandon the idea of using the Sepia.  Now I know that if I need a toned grey I can use it.

The Burnt Umber mixed well and gave me the correct tone I needed for the paper.

Below is the swatch tests I did.

You can see the differences in color.

Not all browns are the same.

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The bottles are backwards!  The Sepia (bottle on the right) starts in the middle.  The Burnt Umber (bottle on the left) starts at the top.  I did several more swatches before I started on correcting the drawing.

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So Busy

I have been really busy the past few weeks.

I have done so many things.

  • Photographed plants in 2 Gardens
  • Photo shoot in a SteamPlant (way cool)
  • Mothers day pics
  • Creepy Angel
  • Working on a stippling commission 12×22 inches (I am insane!)
  • Stretch canvases for new paintings, 3 so far.  More to go.
  • Spring clean house (darn chores)
  • Crypticon – Zombie Face paint
  • I feel like I am missing something…
    • There is always something more

Either way, I am kind of tired now.  I need a day off.  Time to do nothing and be nothing.

If you check out my Instagram account you will get to see all the crazy things I have been up to in visual form.

I am still trying to get prints made.  I keep running into roadblocks (mostly the green paper kind.) I hope to have stuff by the end of September.  Things are looking up!

Enjoy these images of my crazy few months.  Go, GO, GO!!

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Celebrate!

I like to celebrate my birthday.  It is something that is important to me.

I do not do it because I want the attention or things.  I do it because I like that I am alive.  I like to celebrate my birthday to honor all of the things I am, do and will do.  I celebrate to honor my past and future.  All those that I have  met and will  meet.  All the things I will have experienced or will experience.

On my birthday I get to celebrate ALL of the things that make me me.  Most other holidays you only get to celebrate a part of you.  I get to celebrate the macabre side of me on Halloween, the spouse side of me on my anniversary, the family side of me during most other holidays.  My birthday is the day where I can be all of me, not just a tiny part.

A lot of people get hung up on the number or year that they are celebrating.  In my mind that is not worth celebrating.  Getting stuck on the number is only going to get depressing.  There are not many ages worth celebrating. 16, 18, 21… Great, you can drive, vote and drink.  People dread 30, like it is the end of the world.  More dread 40, like it makes you old or something.

I think you should be proud that you have been around to circle the sun 30, 40, 50, 60, on and on times.  Each rotation adds knowledge, skills and experiances.  Things you can pass onto others,  or horde for yourself (if you want.)

Celebrate being you for another year.  You have chances to accomplish things.  You can take care of anything that you will regret later.  You get to have experiances.

You are ALIVE!

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Joy.  Ink wash Painting, by me!  I HATE Orange.  I do not even like to eat oranges.  I thought I would try something different, since I went out of my way to buy some orange  ink.  UGH  This is NOT my favorite thing.   I would like it more if it was in  different colors.