No, I am not really going to post about self sabotage. Not directly, anyway.
This title has more to do with how someone could take the contents of the post. Basically what I have to say is probably going to be a bit of professional self sabotage. The topic has been weighing on my mind so I am going to post about it anyway.
While having dinner with an artist friend, the topic of what artists talk about when they hang out together came up in passing. He joked that he would talk about the latest hot chick he had drawn. If I drew people I would probably do the same (well maybe hot guys instead) but I do not draw/paint people. This was just a passing topic, but it stuck with me. Why don’t I like to draw people?
The answer is pretty simple. I do not like people. I do not see beauty in the human form. I see aggravation and stupidity. I suppose that is what happens when you work customer service your entire life.
Here comes the part where I “Shoot Myself in the Foot.”
I wonder what happens to people when they become customers. It is like they lose all sense and become dribbling idiots, that cannot process a simple directive or thought. I am always amazed at how someone can transition from being an intelligent, logical and sophisticated individual to a bumbling idiot when they walk up to a person standing/sitting behind a desk waiting to help them. This phenomenon is not exclusive to people who do not work customer service, even we fall victim to being stupid when we become customers. Anyone can become a customer. You do your best to be a “good” customer, but those are few and far between.
What does this have to do with art?
Artists create things that cause some kind of response, be it emotional or logical. Some people think that the human form is amazing and find it beautiful and even relaxing. Others (like me) do not see that. The human form is complicated and only causes negative stress. It is hard to keep things in proportion, features create odd shapes and getting the skin tones correct is difficult. I paint scenes and things to get away from people. No people in my paintings means no stress in my paintings. Nature is much less stressful for some artists to draw/paint. I can spend hours driving myself insane painting hundred of tiny tri-colored flowers and be perfectly relaxed. The second I start adding human elements like a hand or bit of arm I start getting stressed out and stop having fun. All because I have negative thoughts associated with people.