It has been a crazy busy year. I have been working hard, both the day job and art. I have run myself down a few times.
March was busy with Emerald City Comicon prep, deciding that a commission plan was not working and starting it over, some personal stuff, and just trying to take some time off the day job to relax.
April has had just as much going on. ECCC was this month, I am deep into the reworked (and much better commission.) I have taken time to relax and try refill my energy reserves. Life keeps throwing me “curve balls” and it is taking me longer than I would like to recover. This last one was a doozy.
I have had an attack of negative self talk. With my birthday coming up I have started to plan a nice little event. Nice dinner at my house with some friends, talking and playing some board games. Just some people having fun. The bad side is that if I plan it, no one will show. Things will happen and they will bail at the last minute. I think that even if I have someone else coordinate it, it would fall through. Thinking about it makes me really sad.
I feel like a loser, doomed to be friendless… alone… an emotional desert.
Then I look at whatever art I am working on. No one who is a loser could make something this cool. An emotional desert cannot create anything… and I create amazing things.
My value is not based on the number of friends I have or their willingness to be with me. My value is in what I can do and how I feel about it.
It keeps the negativity at bay and I survive to art another day.
Here is a sneak peek at what I am working on right now.