Thankful

I was at a loss about what to blog about today.  Then I hit 100 Facebook Page followers.  So I drew a cute little thank you on a “scrap” piece of paper.
 MouseClimbers.jpg100 may not seem like a lot to people.  For the longest time I kept my circles small.  I just hit 150 on my personal page after having the account for eight or so years.  Many are people I worked with, more are people I have met since I started doing art full time.
100 is a landmark.100 people think that art is worth their time. 100 people think I am actually creating something interesting enough for them to spend their time on. 100 people think my art is worth looking at.  Hopefully, given enough time, I can get 100 more people who think my art is worth a few of their precocious seconds.  Maybe they will decide that it is worth a bit of their hard earned money also.
I am actually supposed to be doing nothing this week.  I wanted a week of rest and relaxation after leaving my previous job and rushing to ensure I had everything ready for the Oddmall Event.
I just cannot seem to stop!
In addition to the cute little mice mountaineers, I also started the lines for the next Alice in Wonderland inspired piece.  I will start coloring it in later today.
Check my Instagram for progress shots!
…and Thank You for your support!

Lessons Learned : Oddmall

This weekend was my very first event as a vendor. I learned a lot and have things that I can approve one.
First off, I had a lot of fun.  Sunday was better than Saturday.  Not necessarily because of sales, but people were more talkative and actually asked questions.  I am more than willing to talk about the art all day long.
Stock:  I do not have to bring nearly as much as I did.  Three or for prints and cards of each design is plenty.  This will lighten the load and everything should fit in a rolling suitcase or something similar.  Maybe I should try to get one of those crates on wheels.
I also learned that there is never enough table space.  I was so sure that I would not have enough stuff to fill the table.  Hahahaha… Boy was I wrong.  I could have used another 2 feet of table.
I was grateful for the lulls in traffic.  Making sure I ate and drank appropriate amounts was important and having restroom breaks was handy.  Oddmall offered booth sitters, but I found that they never seemed to be around when I needed them.  I had great people on either side of my booth.  We watched over each others things during quick breaks.
I look forward to doing more events.  I cannot wait to learn about the challenges of doing outdoor events.  I already anticipate sunburns and things trying to blow away.
There is only going forward now 🙂

 

Long Day

I have been working on art since 9 am today.  That puts me around a 10 hour day.  I still have this blog post and a few more things to tidy up before I am done.
I think I am going to go for a walk first.  I am about brain dead.
SLF_Cover_lines_Small.jpgHere is one of the things I created today.  I made this so I would have a cover page for this section in my portfolio.
I think I am going to turn it into a coloring page.  Maybe I can find a few of the other scans of lines that I did and turn those into coloring pages also.
I can put my contact information on them and what not.
Hmmm…
One day left before my first event as a vendor.  Oddmall Tacoma.  I am excited and terrified.  New things are never easy.

 

Super Busy!

After last weeks “busy work” of photographing all my art (an annoying tedious process,) I am…
…still doing “busy work.”
The only reason I am not as bummed out about it is that this “busy work” goes places.  I have been emailing people all week to try to get into events and maybe be a part of a “art for a cause” showcase.
Today has been particularly fruitful as I have an order for 30 cards (squeee,) a commission, and hopefully the originals of my skull experiment will be heading to their new home (waiting on payment, bah.)  I also got replies to several emails and have a few things on the way for my first event in 10 days!
Aaaahhhhh!
Petrified and excited all at once.
In two days I will be fully self employed.  I will no longer be working full time for someone else’s dream.  I get to work full time for my dream.
Being a pragmatic person, I am still not sure I can do it.  I will not know until I try though… right?
I have been so happy with the level of support I have gotten.  Everyone I have gotten feedback from is excited and encouraging.  It makes me feel that I can do it. “I think I can, I think I can, I think I can, said the little train.”
I STILL have not made anything new this week.
One of my favorite creations is the “Haunted Dryad.”  I worked really hard to get it done (still missed by self imposed deadline.) I stayed up late on work nights and worked on it all of my “free time.”  I barely gave myself any rest.  Over 60 hours later (spread out over 2 weeks) and about 1,188,000 dots later it was done.  So were many pens, and a good portion of my sanity (so says my spouse.)
HauntedDryad

Stippling! 60 hours and an estimated 1,188,000 dots. I think this is my best work this year

Closer and Closer

Every day I get closer to living my dream, well, trying to.
I am so nervous.
Giving up the stability of my current job to pursue something that I want to do… and not knowing if I will be able to support myself.
When I am positive about myself, I believe I can sell everything.  When I am not having a great day, I do not think anyone will buy anything and I will fail.  When I am more balanced, I am pretty sure I will at least break even at my first event, Oddmall Tacoma.  Well I hope I break even (obviously, I have a pretty negative world view today.)
RedStringofFateMy latest painting kind of leans to my thinkings.
You may think that you can control your fate. Pulling on the string binds your senses and then you really cannot do much.  Follow the sting and you may find what you were meant for.
Well, something like that.
On Instagram I put “you can take your fate into your hands, but it will still bind you.”
Speaking about the art.
I really like that I used complimentary colors. Red for the background, some gold and purple to add depth.  I did the skeleton in green.
I hope to see you at OddMall in Tacoma, Wa (I am in booth 37.)
If you cannot make it check out my store!

 

Uncertainty

The past week has been rough.

I am so burnt out from my job that I am putting in my notice.  I have been doing the job for ten years.  It has grown beyond what one person can handle. I have asked for help every month for the last year and none has been forth coming.

FitThe stress is taking its toll on me. I eat when I am frustrated so I keep putting on weight and wasting money on junk food.  There is no escape from the food.  It is in the cafeteria, gift shop, snack bars (there are two,) and the pharmacy.  There are also three convenience stores across the street.

I am so frustrated that I cannot get the motivation to exercise.  I do not even really want to work on art, read, or socialize.  I just want to hide away in my room and stare at the ceiling.  Then all the negative and bad thoughts come.  So really, a lose, lose situation.

There are things that I am concerned about.  Like having enough money to support the house hold, paying bills and what not.  I am concerned that I will not be able to sell any art to help financially.  I am concerned that I will not be able to create more art, once I do not have the stress and frustration of the daily grind.

I worry that I will just fail and bring the household down with me.

I just cannot do it any more.  Working at a fast food joint slinging burgers or taking orders is more appealing then going into work tomorrow.  If I had fewer morals, I might have just walked off the job several years ago.

I have morals and I am pretty stubborn.  I do have my limits and they have been reached.

Sad and true.

The image is a painting I did trying to express how I feel about my current situation.  It is call “Fit.”  It is grey-scale acrylic on canvas.  My spouse says that he worries when I paint or draw “weird” things.  I told him to worry more when I stop.  That means I am to far gone.

 

In the Bag

FarewellThumbnailNot really a bag, but it is still finished.  After the past two weeks of having low motivation it is invigorating to finish something.
This one is call Farewell.  I like having metallic finishes on my pieces.
I have an idea for one more in this style.  Then I have an idea for a change in style.  I am excited.  I have been doing this style for about year and it is about time to progress, change things up.
I tried to get things as naturally placed as possible.  I wanted to reflect how things might actually grow.