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Little, yet Big Step

After TONS of research I have made the leap and opened an Etsy store account.  Over the next few weeks  I will be photographing and posting things to sell.

Exciting, and scary.

Moving on with my goals.  I did not initially plan on having a “store” just yet.  However, it occurred to me that I may want to have a place to send people in the event they cannot afford a product while at an event (art festival and the like.)  Maybe I can sell a few things to pay for admission fees and packing materials (apparently that could be the more expensive part since I paint / draw larger things.)

I am excited!  Moving along my path to reach my goals!  Things can become so much clearer when you just make a move, small or large.  Any move on the path is good.  I also need to clear the walls and other storage areas so I can create new things (I am a little on the prolific side.)

I am also scared.  Moving into an unknown area is challenging and scary.  No amount of research can prepare one for having a business owner (or attempting.)  There are so many things that I do not know, and do not know that I need to know.  I do not know how people will accept my art style and (by proxy) me.

I am not 100% sure on the whole pricing thing. Not many are, from what I can find.  Packing originals, some with glass…  taxes (income and sales)… fees… licenses… So many unknowns.

Another plus, I know people who know the answers, or might be able to point me in the right direction.  Friends are AWESOME!  I have been avoiding asking them much, because… well it is scary to ask for help (from another post!)

I am going to push ahead.  Success is only going to come if I try!

(I sound confident right?!)

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A Humpback Angler Fish.

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When Art is Difficult

There is a lot of art out there that was hard for the artist to create.  Well, maybe that is just not quite right.  It is easy to create, but hard to look at afterwards.  It is to close to something true within and causes pain to see it out in the world.

Today I show a bit of something very true, a bit of my core, my soul, whatever you want to call it.

There are times when one can feel  trapped, chained down, by life or perceived restrictions.

I was having one of those times when I planned and drew this.

I remember every time I look at it or think about it.  I think about it when I am feeling chained down.  It causes a type of pain to look at (think about) if I am emotionally susceptible.  Writing about it brings up anxiety.

Now for the technical stuff on the drawing.  It was done with Micron pens.  It took about 50 hours to draw, 10 hours to digitally edit and color.  I used a photo of a rusty dock pylon for the texture and a bit of color to make it more “rusty” colored.  Yes I have some water marks on it.

Here you go.  The bit of my soul (a creepy bit.)

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When life ties you up, dries you out and stuffs you in a box, draw it.

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The Difference of One

It is hard, sometimes, to not realize that you are only a single voice in a large crowd and not many, if any, will ever hear you.

There are many other analogies for this:

One light in the sky.

One grain of sand on the beach.

One flower in the garden.

What you say or how you say it will not make it very far, in most cases.  Your message gets lost before you can finish thinking about it.

Everyone wants to be heard / seen/ felt… sensed in some way.  Some people shout, some talk softer, some band together under one cause and their voices become much louder.

However you do it you just want to reach people.  If you goal is to reach 10 people and shouting works, great.  If you want to reach 100 people and speaking quietly works, go for it.  If you want to reach a country or make an impact on the world, joining a group is usually the way to go.  It does not matter how you do it, you want to reach and connect with others.

I think the thing that depresses me the most, is that all the shouting, shining, and growing, will probably not make a difference in the world.  Not even in your own garden, beach or sky. Everything will be the same as it ever was, had you not existed.

Everything we do is for naught but our own self-importance. Meaningless…

Then…

You talk to a friend (or a fan, or family, perhaps) and your view point changes.  You realize that you made a difference to someone.  That their life is less without you in it.

Even being able to effect one life is worth all the shouting, shining, and growing you can do.

Be the best light you can, shine your brightest.  Be the best grain of sand, best flower, best voice you can be.  Do what you can to make one life better.

One life that benefits from anything you do, is all one needs to keep going.

Proof that one voice, one light, one grain or one flower can improve the world.

Thank you friend.

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My birthday greeting for my friend. You may not feel like it, but you are amazing just the way you are.

And Happy Birthday J

First of Two

This week will be a week of Birthdays.  There are two, that I am aware of.  Both friends of mine.

Since I am exceptionally broke this year, they get drawings.

This is pretty great for me.  I have something to draw on two of five days (yippie!) and I do not have to spend any money.  Only about 2 hours of my time.  Which I was going to spend drawing anyway.  Win for me… Not sure how they will feel about it.

I will also give a birthday plug to Robert.  As a freelance artist and comic creator the plug will probably mean more than my doodle.  I doubt he reads this, so it will be a nice surprise if any of you choose to visit his sites. 🙂

Robert has two (yeah two) comic strips running, Writhe and Shine and Overcast with a Chance of Doom.  They are both really good and quite entertaining (Chance of Doom makes Wednesday’s worth dealing with.)  He has a gift for sneaking gags into the art (all hail lord Vego.)  Worth a look if you ask me. (Honestly, the art is amazing.)  You can also check out his fine art offerings at his personal site.

I could rave about Robert’s art for quite a while. If I did that you would never get to see my art (hahaha) offering for today.

Zero and the banner turned out okay. Poor Jack, though… not sure what happened there… Sorry Mr. Burton!  I did not mean to butcher poor Jack.  Good thing I chose not draw Sally.

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Happy Birthday Robert!

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Long Week

It has been a long week.  I managed to do a drawing every day on top of the crazy days at work.

I am not sure if I can keep up the pace.  I will try to get ahead this weekend and do some drawings.  They are fun, but time consuming.  I have been slacking off on the painting in favor of the fun and “quick” thrill of the drawings (and the quick validation that comes with posting them.)

Work, work, work.  Gotta get the art out of my head.  It just takes so much time.

Night!

Tired

So tired. It has been a busy week.

Gotta love the Instagram filters. ^^

Flying like the Moon, Acrylic on Canvas.
I apologize for the terrible photo.

Giving it a Go: Planning Stages

Flying like the Moon, Acrylic on Canvas. I apologize for the terrible photo.

Flying like the Moon, Acrylic on Canvas.
I apologize for the terrible photo.
We all have things we strive for. Some of us want to reach for the Moon, others the Sun and still more, the Stars. I am happy with the Moon.

Sometime this past week or so I decided that I would try and sell my art, maybe even try making a living at it.

Like everything that can be considered a “big step” or “big deal,” I am going to do things in some kind of order.

1. Research / Planing

2. Small Gears first

3. Medium Gears / Balancing dreams

4. Go for Broke

I am going to do some research.  I need to find out the costs of getting scans and prints made.  Find out how to protect my art.  Do I need a business license or something of the sort and plan for any financial problems. Figure out how much time I can devote to this endeavor. I can do my own website and what not, woo.

I want to do some small things first.  I plan on starting online with prints, cards and the like.  I am not sure if I want to use Deviant Art’s store and print shop or if I should go with Etsy or Shopify and manage inventory myself.  Questions like this is why planning is important.

I want to go into this with a plan. Plans are good.

I want to start submitting stuff into contests or open art calls.  I think this kind of thing could be really fun (and very stressful.)  I know that I will need to start talking to more people (scary) and promoting myself more.

I really, really want to work my art into web development some how.  Web development is an art in itself.  I it is not something I want to give up on.  At this point I can see myself doing both and being good at it.

I am not sure yet if I want to paint/draw full time or do web dev full time.  They are both very interesting.

The goal, like so many others, is to quit my “day” job and do what I decide is the way I want to go.

Who knows what a year (or more) will bring.  I may fail and be working at a minimum wage job. I may be successful as a painter and share my vision with colors and brushes. I may get some better coding education and take off as a web developer who shares the world in code.

Who knows.

I kind of like the not knowing.

The planning and research that happens when you decide you would like to try something.  Figuring out potential pitfalls or successes.  It is interesting and fun… in a scary way.

Now that I have these thoughts out of my head, maybe I can sleep.

Night!

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Wall of Dancers

This post was supposed to go out on Friday.  I did not verify that it was saved before I closed my browser.  Silly me. *Shakes head*

I have painted several dancers / gymnasts in my last series of paintings.  I tried different styles and color combinations, even monochromatic to try to capture what I was thinking and feeling as I watched the videos, or remembered performances.

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Wall of Dancers, acrylic on canvas.

Starting on the left we have “the Red Dancer.”  I painted this in 2013 after watching a belly dancing demonstration.  This painting has a “sister” in “the Blue Dancer,” which was damaged in my last move.  Once I add it I will have five dancers.

Next up is “Flying:Aerial Silks”  I was going for a nebula or space effect in the background. I tried a different style to get the background.  I am still undecided on if I like it or not. This was the first of my new dancers, completed just before new year in 2014.

The big one is “Flying like the Moon.”  The roue cyr (cyr wheel) was the gymnastic that started the whole “dancer” series.  I was stumbling around the internet and saw a video with Interie and was hooked.  I spent three hours watching different videos watching different dancers and gymnasts.  While the first idea it was the last one I painted.  I even went through a few variations before I chose this one.

Last up is “Flying like a Comet.”  I always thought the ribbon rhythmic gymnasts looked like comets flying around the floor.  I could have chosen any color for this one.  I was very undecided but settled on blue/purple/white.  Photos of comets are usually blue/green and white.  I like purple so I added a bit of that.

I really enjoyed painting these and I have already moved onto another set of paintings.  The same inspiration in two different styles.  I should be posting them soon!