PAX Prime 2014 has descended upon Seattle, and I am working it. (Table Top if you want to stop by and say ‘Hi.’)
Every time I work an event I get REALLY nervous. It does not matter if I am an enforcer (PAX,) minon (ECCC) or as a photographer for a gig.
People freak me out, and not always in a good way. Yes, nerds and geeks are still people. Even though I have more in common with the type of people that attend PAX and ECCC they still freak me out.
I hate small talk, and therefore suck at it. I constantly say inappropriate things, or have no clue how to respond, and it only gets worse if I do not know what to expect or “something” is not going to plan. This year my unplanned “something” is that I was not able to go up the day before and get my enforcer badge and shirts. This sucks!!!
All I can hope is that my spouse remembered to ask where to get them tomorrow. Yeah, I do not like relying on people either. People mess up perfectly good plans on a regular basis.
So, why do I keep doing this to myself?
Well, I enjoy it once everything starts. Even the guys who will not look at me because I am a “girl with boobs” (this is way stranger to me than getting hit on.) I like to see what people wear, who they bring, and listening to what they talk about. It is really neat.
I also never got to do this kind of stuff as a kid. I kind of missed out on the crazy parties and general weirdness that people experience in their late teens and early twenties. I get to snatch bits of fun in my thirties instead. Not a bad trade, I am old enough to value the experiences.
How do I get through it?
I have a lot of experience with customer service. Once things get rolling I can become what the attendees expect in an Enforcer at PAX.
The big and best tool I have is MAKEUP!
It is about to get girly for a bit.
I do not usually wear makeup. I dislike how it feels and it takes a bit of time and maintenance, which I find annoying. I am also super sensitive to mascara and eye liner and can only use a few types (more work.) The bonus of makeup is that it is a mask, you can look like and become someone else. We do not call it “war paint” for nothing.
I like to dress up for events and allow other sides of my personality out, though it can be tiring. This year at PAX I will have purple hair with blue stripes (well the front 1/4 will.) I will also be busting out the colorful eye shadows and lip gloss (ooo lala.) Stuff I do not get to do on a daily basis.
Once my warpaint is on and I am caffeinated (Chai latte please,) you will never know that I was nervous and that people freak me out.
Have fun this weekend!
Some of me will.
FYI, I use Espionage Cosmetics. They are a local company and have a great product. I will be wearing the Gamer Girl color set and circuit board nail wraps (ran out of the d20’s.) If any of you people out there are looking for some good stuff. It is very vibrant and hangs out for a really long time. I am pretty sure they have a booth.