There are many things that I avoid because I know they will swallow me up and I will not do what I need to do or want to do. TV for example. Sucks you in and you emerge blinking and with no clue what happened.
I try to avoid getting angry. It just consumes all reason, and does not usually solves the problem. You usually end up looking like an ass in the end.
This week was tough. I spent my weekend running around and with people. Instead of resting and recharging. This is bound to run anyone’s temper a bit thin. In addition it was hot (for me anyway,) another contributing factor. Then… well lets just say a reoccurring dispute raised its head. It was my final straw.
Now I am angry. The simmering, consuming kind. The kind that does not go away until things are resolved or something breaks.
On the plus side, I painted this weekend. I also drew a creepy fish. Enjoy!
Creepy fangfish ( anger,) eating a representation of me. Nomnomnom.
Lots of calming blue and some bubbles. Who can stay mad with bubbles?
More bubbles. Still angry... Bubbles, You have failed me!
I am embarrassed to say that I have been jealous all day. Embarrassed because I know why I am jealous and there is no solid/logical reason for it. Absolutely ridiculous. I would love to just get over it, but I doubt that will happen. Smush the feelings and move on.
This did cause me to paint a small painting about this particular sin, so the day was not an entire loss.
Jealousy is a terrible thing. It makes you angry about things that you have no influence over, depressed about your anger and inability to control things. It also makes you stupid. Once you are focusing on things that you cannot control you lose control over things you can normally control. Once you lose control over the important things you are stick and may need help to get back on track.
There are many ways to deal with Envy or Jealousy. One is to just recognize that you are jealous and then move on. You could also talk to someone if you are not able to move on. They may be able to alter your view point enough for you to move on.