Motivation Monday 11

I go so busy creating art that I forgot about the Motivation Monday blog post!

Usually I do a quick bit of art then type up the blog post. Not yesterday. I spent hours on it. There were lots of little details and fiddly bits. Then I colored it in… which takes me forever with colored pencil.

Yesterday’s quote comes from Robert Green Ingersoll. Wikipedia says he was a lawyer, orator (talker,) teacher, and even a military vet from the civil war. His father was very religious, which made an impact on his views later in life. He was referred to as “the great agnostic.” I like this guy more with ever sentence I read about him! He sounds like a well rounded guy that loved to think and understand things. A great person to get a motivational quote from.

“A great man is a torch in the darkness, a beacon in superstition’s night, an inspiration and a prophesy.” Robert Green Ingersoll.

I had a hard time picking a quote. I wanted to honor September 11th in some way. That did not work out for me. Everything I saw was overly religious or very hateful to various groups of people. There were some funny sarcastic ones, but sarcasm is often lost in text. There was not a lot about the courage to rebuild or how people join together. That made me sad.

Torch_MotivationMonday_THUMBI settled on Mr. Ingersoll’s quote because it was a good medium between where I wanted to go and what was available.

You cannot always tell who is great when they are walking down the street. We all look pretty much the same when en-mass. Lots of people just trying to get from point a to point b efficiently and in a similar condition as we were when we started (unmolested physically, mentally, and spiritually.) I made my ‘great’ people a different color so the art would reflect the quote more.

What makes a ‘great’ person anyway? Are they more generous than most others? Are they better at a specific thing? Or maybe they are “good” at a bunch of little things? Is greatness a personality trait or a way of life? Can it be taught or is it innate?

There are lots of books out there on how to be a “better” you. Will a better you be great?

What do you think makes a great person? I am interested in knowing.

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Motivational Monday: 1

I ran out new things to write about twice a week. Even once a week was getting hard. My life is not all that interesting. All I really do is create art and listen to music. There are only so many things one can write about on those activities.

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Our greatest weakness lies in giving up.  The most certain way to succeed is to try just one more time.  Thomas A Edison.

I went online looking for ideas on what to write about. The internet did not let me down. I got some topics that I can work with. One that I thought was a great idea is “Motivational Monday.”

I can use motivation. I bet others could use motivation. I need to work on “small” or short duration drawings. Everything I have been working on lately has taken me a week or more to finish.

Motivational Monday’s will now be a thing I do.

The image below is actually version 4. I always do a few versions in my head, I did two in my sketchbook and this one on a 5×7 bit of bristol.

I attempted to do a freehand person in my sketchbook version.  it was not very good.  The guys arms would be dragging on the ground and the foot is severely deformed.  It took about an hour to do.

The one I present to you was done with a stock photo and a light table.  It took about 2 hours to do.  I usually print out a black and white high contrast version of the image I plan on using.  Then I sketch out the lines I want and any important shadows.  The only thing that I used for this one was the position of the guy and the shadows that make up the face.  I changed the shirt and hair.

Like it says in the quote, I will keep trying to get better at people.  One more time, then one more time and maybe… one more time.  Eventually I will be able to draw a person that does not look like it should have been a sideshow at a carnival in the 1800’s.

The goal is to do “Motivational Monday” every Monday. It will give me something to write about other than whatever boring thing is going on in my life. It will give me something positive to focus on.

Have a good Week!

PS. IF you want to see the horrid monstrosity I did in my sketchbook check out my Instagram account  @bycarissac

I Wish

There are a lot of things I can say I wish for on a regular basis.

The big one right now is…

I wish I had not developed asthma. When I have an attack I am unmotivated, listless, confused, and lethargic. It takes me a while to realize that I am having an attack, because I am easily confused and listless.  When I realize I am not “normal” it has been a few weeks. 

Ot seems to be happening mostly in the spring, when therw are more allergens.  I end up increasing both my asthma and allergy medication doses for a week or so. It does not make me happy to do so.

I have been trying to get ready for a smallish art show in May, my first. Having this delay is not awesome. How am I supposed to have cool stuff if I cannot focus on making things?

It jas taken about a month, but I finally finished this. 

Enjoy!

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Not Sure

The past week has been rough.

I am so burnt out from my job that I am putting in my notice.  I have been doing the job for ten years.  It has grown beyond what one person can handle. I have asked for help every month for the last year and none has been forth coming.

The stress is taking its toll on me. I eat when I am frustrated so I keep putting on weight and wasting money on junk food.  There is not escape from the food.  It is in the cafeteria, gift shop, snack bars (there are two,) and the pharmacy.  There are also three convenience stores across the street.

I am so frustrated that I cannot get the motivation to exercise.  I do not even really want to work on art, read, or socialize.  I just want to hide away in my room and stare at the ceiling.  Then all the negative and bad thoughts come.  So really, a lose, lose situation.

There are things that I am concerned about.  Like having enough money to support the house hold, paying bills and what not.  I am concerned that I will not be able to sell any art to help financially.  I am concerned that I will not be able to create more art, once I do not have the stress and frustration of the daily grind.

I worry that I will just fail and bring the household down with me.

I just cannot do it any more.  Working at a fast food joint slinging burgers or taking orders is more appealing then going into work tomorrow.  If I had fewer morals, I might have just walked off the job several years ago.

I have morals and I am pretty stubborn.  I do have my limits and they have been reached.

Sad and true.

Fit

My spouse worries about me when I paint or draw “weird” things.  I told him to worry more when I am not painting these things.  It means I am to far gone.  This is called “Fit.”  It is black and white acrylic on canvas.

 

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THIS is Asthma

NerdHistorically asthma was a “nerd” disorder. Portrayed by kids that could not go outside because they would start wheezing and coughing, maybe even passout. The kids that had inhalers and would take a puff when they were nervous or scared. The kids who stuttered when talking, played Dungeons and Dragons, chess, ate weird foods and dreamed of playing outside.

Having visible difficulty breathing is a way to show one has asthma.  But it is not the only way.  There are many other symptoms that one cannot see.

Think about it for a moment.  Humans who forget to drink enough water suffer from headaches, urinary tract infections, kidney stones and a variety of other ailments.  What would happen if your body was not processing oxygen (and trace gases) efficiently?

head in the cloudsOne thing that happens is the loss of mental faculties.  The brain requires quite of a bit of oxygen to run correctly.  A person who is not getting the proper treatment for their asthma may have trouble thinking clearly acting distracted.

Another is loss of motivation. Why do anything that takes what little energy you might have away from you?  All that matters is … well, nothing.  Nothing takes no energy to maintain. So you get sucked into this vicious circle of nothingness (I experienced a whole year of this.  It is terrible.  I will not go back.)

Why bother making the bed?  Why bother going to work?  Why bother making friends?

whybotherMost of January I was very unmotivated.  I had trouble concentrating, planning, thinking and doing.  It took all my energy to get up, go to work, come home and prepare to repeat.  I did not have energy to create art, do chores or even sleep.  I came home and laid in bed thinking about nothing…  Why bother, I do not have the energy to do anything.

… Wait…. That sounds like Depression!

That is what I thought!

Once  I made the connection (it took forever.  So many bad days…) I started to look for articles relating to a connection between Asthma and Depression.  My handicapped brain had trouble finding many.  Most specialists seem to think that a person is Depressed and has or develops Asthma, which makes the depression worse.  Depression first, Asthma second.

Going along that logic, I am depressed and I developed asthma. I do not think so.

I developed asthma due to a poorly treated bronchial infection and moving to an area with known poor air quality.  Add my existing allergies and POOF, I have asthma.  I am sure I am not the only person that developed asthma later in life.  This was not something I was born with.

On the same note, I have never been diagnosed as depressed.  Yeah, I have bad days like everyone else.  Overall I really like living, and see the sad days as a way to make the good ones better.  I have a mind to dream things and energy to make them happen.  On a consistent basis.  None of the traditional flow and ebb common in people with depression.

Maybe a professional should look into poorly managed Asthma causing Depression.  There are articles on how asthma makes depression worse, how asthma medication can worsen or cause depression, but not much outside of that.  Maybe it is one of those “no kidding” kind of things.  So simple we know it to be true, so no one researches it.

I have gotten additional medication for my asthma.  I hope to see some results in a week or so (it takes a while, sometimes…)  The main fruits of my research are that I CAN do things to keep the depressive side affects at bay.

  1. Take my meds.  On time, every day.
  2. Exercise!  Even 20 minutes of yoga can greatly improve mood.  Most providers recommend 10 minutes of cardio to help strengthen the lungs.
  3. Friends.  Yes, get out and talk to people.  Even if you have to fake feeling great and being upbeat until you are (it works, so say the professionals.)  Ideally should have friends that understand what is going on and can deal with it.
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Asthma Prevention Heros

That is about all I have on this topic today.

I really hope that it helps someone a little bit.

 

 

 

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Eye of the…

Lizard?

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My drawing of Fred’s eye. I think it came out pretty good.

Not how the song or saying goes, but today’s drawing if of Fred’s eye.  I think it came out pretty nicely.  I even edited it Picasa to add some warmth to it.  I had to resize it in MS Picture Manager.  I have not been able to find that option in Picasa yet.  I know it is in there somewhere.

I actually spent time on this drawing. I had a good day and I used that happy energy to keep focused.  I started to lose focus the further away from the focal point I got.  I do not want to drink any caffeine to get the last bit out.  I have to get up in the morning to work.

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Referance photo for “Eye of the Lizard.” Courtesy of Mr. Ben, Fred’s “owner.”

On a personal note, it was a pretty good day.  Poked a “bear,” I hope something comes from it (and not my limbs disappearing…) I had a

meeting with someone about an intern / volunteer thing.  Informal right now, but I hope that it will lead to better things.  I need to learn all I can about the Web Design / Development / Administration so I can move on in my career.  I really want this to work out (fingers crossed.)  I get to sit in on a training session next week. *Excited!*

I know this year is going to be better than last year.  I lost all my motivation and creativity got sucked away with it.  This year I have the creativity back and some “happy” so I am more motivated.  I wonder if it has anything to do with my good allergy meds… (that was random…)

Have a good evening!  One more day of Fred drawings.  I wonder what I will do tomorrow!

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…Don’t Wanna

I do not really want to draw today.

I do not really want to socialize today.

I do want to crawl into bed and pretend that no one is home.

I do want to stay home and not interact with people.  I am still up in the air about the cats… they can stay if they are quite…

Just because I did not want to does not mean I did not.

I drew.  I went to work and talked to people.  I made a blog post. Look at me being all responsible and doing things I do not want to do.

I will crawl into bed when I am done (90% chance.)

No cats, they are not usually quite.  Attention hogs.

Here is my doodle.  It is something I drew a bunch in my school days (high school and university.)

Imagine the perfect spot.  But it is on top of a cliff and it is very challenging to reach.  Would you still try?

Totally!  It is the perfect spot.

I doodled a path to take to get there.

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A little doodle about the path to a perfect spot. I played with the coloring afterwards.

P.S.  I loaded an upright photo!!  Why the heck is it sideways in the post??  Freaking annoying.